Oh my goodness, you guys. I am so excited! In two weeks we get to see our little bean! I got our final betas in today and they were 1070 @ 18dpo. She set up our ultrasound for April 17th and said everything looks good so no more bloodwork! My poor veins had about had it, I think. She really had to coax them into giving her blood for the last draw. So take heart little vein, our little bean is doing well enough for you to not have to get stuck for the next two weeks!
Now whether I'm going to freak out over not knowing how everything is going over the next two weeks is a different matter all together. There's this irrational side of me that keeps thinking, "What if the baby stops developing because we stop checking levels?" Thinking that way is simply insane, I know this. But knowing that it is crazy and irrational does not help me to stop thinking it. This pregnancy is progressing much much better than the last two. My levels had already started spiraling downward by this time last pregnancy. I feel sicker and more tired. Everything stinks. So all the signs are there that this is different, but I still have that deeply ingrained fear that it will turn out the same.
I just have to keep telling myself, and this baby, and the universe, and whoever else is listening that this will be our sticky little take home baby. That this baby is not allowed to leave my body until December, and when it does, it better plan on sticking around for another 80 or so years. It will grow up and have babies of its own, darn it! That is the plan and no one is allowed to deviate from the plan! That will be my mantra as I navigate these next two beta-less weeks.
*And remember, Facebookers, we are still in hush hush mode!*
Oh, and here's an IF PSA for you!
April is Infertility Awareness Month with National Infertility Awareness Week being April 21st through 27th. This week can be a great time to open up dialog, spread awareness, and try to remove the taboo that still surrounds infertility. RESOLVE has a great website specifically for this week with suggestions on sharing information, getting involved, and telling your story. Go to http://www.resolve.org/national-infertility-awareness-week/home-page.html and see what you can do!
We both commented on the same post on Fertility Friend, So glad to hear all is well so far! Praying for a sticky take home babe for you!!!
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Glad you've got your ultrasound scheduled! It is the most amazing thing to actually see something growing inside of you! Just a word of caution though, there is a lot of variability in what you will see and that is totally normal. When we first went at almost 6 weeks, we didn't see anything but an empty sac. A week later we saw the baby and the egg sac AND the heartbeat. So, this early, pretty much whatever you see is normal.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this. I will definitely remember this if we don't see what we are expecting to see.
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